To Love myself again


To Love myself again


Where do I begin, to love myself again?
To see me as you see me,
how do I love myself for who I am?
You say that you're our Shepard and we are your sheep,
How can I love myself when this pain is too deep?
Help me understand, how my life is part of your plan
and that I'm unique in your eyes and you're my biggest fan.
The pain I've felt for so long
You say will only make me grow strong,
How, why? it just feels so wrong.
At times, these painful memories take me back
to my dreadful painful past,
My heart pounds and mind races way to fast
Lift me up and give me your peace and rest.
I need you Jesus, I must confess.
I can't feel, I just feel numb
assure me of your plan and who I can become.
Show me love and compassion for my weary soul.
Help me find Peace and a future with hope
Because I just want to feel complete and whole.
You tell me, I'm beautiful when I feel miserable
and that your love for me is unconditional.
Mend my broken heart and hurting soul.
Teach me to live in the moment of chaos
and still find your peaceful joy.
Help me to love myself
with all my flaws and broken parts
and even though you see all the bad in me,
You still want me because it's my heart that you see.
You say you're working making me new
I don't understand how that can even be true.
I want to appreciate who I am and love myself again,
To feel beautiful like the flowers that bloom in the spring.
Jesus, only you can help me love who I truly am.
I will trust you even though I don't understand
because for my life, you always had a plan.
Rosalinda Loy 12-27-16


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