My Pain

My Pain

The pain I've gone through, the hurt I feel at times

has left a hole in my heart and I'm broken inside,

bruises on my skin, wounds on my flesh, in tears I cry,

knocked down with cruel words that has damaged my life,

I'm laughed at, criticized, pushed aside

and I fall to pieces every time my husband and I have a fight.

I don't know maybe I'm to blame for all these terrible times

but I do know for sure that I feel numb and empty inside

and I'm certain there's something missing in my life.

I've been hurt! Cant you see these tears I often cry?

lost in my own mess, drowning as the waters rise,

how do I begin again? and can you really open up my eyes?

down on my knees, begging lord, help me please!

but evil whispers, saying "you're unworthy to be at his side"

this pain has left me deep scars time after time

a prisoner to this darkness, lost in my mind, without a guide.

Will you lead me to safety? and renew this empty life?

calm my fears, heal my wounds, mend my heart inside.

reassure me that I'm going to survive and I'll be alright.

In the still of the darkness, in the morning sunlight

I hear you saying " don't lose faith & pray from deep inside"

Pain I've gone through, hurt I feel at times

will only make me stronger to face this difficult life.

teach me your ways, remind me to pray at every sunrise,

give me your love, wrap your arms around me oh so tight!

allow me to feel your presence and shine your peaceful light.

I want to know you're with me and never leaving my side.

My hurt and pain in nothing compared to your holy sacrifice

and I'm grateful to you my sweet Jesus Christ.

for you gave your precious life so that I wouldn't lose mine.

Your love I cannot comprehend or try to understand

but I will trust your word and keep you in my mind and sight,

walking by faith, believing you have a plan for my crazy life.

Rosalinda Loy